Goddess of spring
The first
time I saw her I only noticed her laugh. She had the most beautiful laugh I had
ever heard and at that moment I felt that it was the kind of laugh I wanted to
hear for the rest of my life. I saw her in Viharamahadevi park. A group of
girls that I guessed to be her friend were all listening intently to what she
was saying. Her expressions were beautiful and had a grace that magnified her
beauty. I could not help noticing that she had the most glorious shinning eyes.
It was so happy and fresh, that I felt the vibe of her ecstasy bringing a
breeze to my soul.
My idiot friend pulled me to show the boring
plan that he had been droning about for the past few hours so I turned my
attention to him for a few minutes. When I was too tired with his nonsense I
turned my head to look at the goddess of spring few feet away from me and I was
extremely shocked with the result. SHE WAS NOT THERE! I turned to the fiend
that I call a friend with a snarl and said, “You know what you idiot? All your
stupid plan sucks. Throw it in the bin and come up with something fresh and
breezy.” Fresh and breezy? What am I talking about? Urgh I’m messed up today.
So I turned to my sulking friend and said, “Look Nimal this plan for the project
is not going to work. It’s not what our boss expects. He wants to combine the
technology to our new project. So let’s think of making this system work mostly
with cloud computing or something much more easily accessible. Okay buddy?” I
can see Nimal relax so I leave him to enjoy my weekend in my lonely style.
It was
around 5.15 p.m. when I reached the independence square for my evening jog. I
parked my car near the Arcade and took a stroll to the square.
I should say that I had completely forgotten
about the goddess due to the pressure in the mind but when I saw her again in
Arcade I was determined to go up and get a close view of her. Well I know I do
sound creepy but I wasn’t in a state to control my thoughts. So I took a couple
of steps but it seemed like the gang had changed their plan and they left. As I
was not a real stalker I left the place and retraced my steps to the square to
take my jog. I went around six laps around the park and I knew I was all sweaty
and reeked to high heavens. But come on, most of them in the park were in my
state too and I was not in a mood to muse over olfactory welfare.
So I slumped
on a stair and watched the people jogging, walking and running in the lamp lit
darkness. I startled when I heard a commanding girl voice say, “Can you move
out of the way?” “No please, no excuse me, no would you mind, the attitude of
this girl!” was the first thought that came to my mind before I rise and make
space. After I shot up I noticed the commander in fact was the goddess I had
just started to think about. A smile slowly crawled over my face when I
re-played the co-incidence or the work of cupid that had brought us close three
times in one day. I shook my head when I realized that I was bringing cupid
into the story and said quite aloud “Co-incidence, definitely co-incidence.”
Suddenly the
goddess turned and smiled at me. “Woaahhh”, was all that escaped my mouth, when
I thought that she too had seen me but she decided to spoil it all. For she
turned to her friends with a “That guy is speaking to himself, must have
escaped from some asylum.” It added oil to my already blazing fire and I
thought “Yes an asylum I call an office.” That was the end of our co-incidences
and I never got to see her because my work consumed me up completely.
After three
weeks I had a meeting with one of my college buddy in the China Town
restaurant. It was just a catching up for past time’s sake but the idiot took a
long time to come. It had already been fifteen minutes since I came here and
the aroma in the air was not helping the situation either. So I swore to myself
that I would make my order if that bull takes any longer. When I was
impatiently waiting and checking out the customers my eyes stopped a table near
the window facing the beach.
It’s the
goddess, I was determined to know her name. For calling her goddess made me
feel archaic though it suited her very well. But something was wrong about her
countenance today and that was when I noticed that she too had been waiting and
that too with a single rose in her lap and sad eyes on her face. That evoked my
doubt, “Is she really waiting or has anyone proposed to her?” That idea brought
something heavy to my heart that astonished me too.
My phone
suddenly vibrated from my jacket pocket and I saw that it was the punctual
friend whom I was expecting.” “Where the hell are you, you dumb bull?” “Calm
down man, my girlfriend suddenly called me and wanted to hangout. I can’t turn
down that or I’d have to face consequences. Please understand machan.” He
begged. I did not understand what these bossy girls wanted from their boys.
Always messing with their plans. Well at least I’m single, free and happy. So I
took pity on him and said that we’d meet another day.
I put my
phone back in my jeans pocket and was ready to make my order but then I noticed
a streak of tears running through my goddess’s cheeks. “My goddess? Where are
you going on with this Eshan?” asked my brain but it also noticed a family with
a sleeping baby on the shoulder of the father waiting for a table near her. So
I got up from my table and smiled at them signaling that they could have the
table. The couple smiled their thanks and took the table. I was really very
hungry so I decided to have my dinner and so made a plan in mind.
“Hi godde… I
mean I came here to get my dinner but as that family over there waited for a
table with that baby in hand I gave them my table. Would you mind if I join
you. I am really hungry right now and there’s no tables around and you seem to
be alone too.” Puff, I said it didn’t I? I really made it. The goddess gave a
look over me a couple of times and shook her head and showed her hand towards
the chair opposite her. I sat there with a thank you and a smile but she just
continued to ignore me along with her corn soup that seemed to have turned cold
now and looked out of the window. I felt like I was slapped right through my
face but my brain said, “You asked for it bro!” So I made my order and waited
till it came.
It did come
finally. The steaming saucy oodles with devilled prawns and crab along with the
steaming corn soup made my mouth water and told me that the wait was worth it.
I started dishing out the plate while moaning forgetting that there was a
goddess in front of me. “Humph… these men”, she said with a shake of her head
that made me raise my eyes to her and suddenly I felt disgusted for not having
my table manners. She too saw this and her face changed and she started “Oh I’m
sorry I didn’t mean you. It’s just that I had been waiting for this boyfriend
of mine to come as we planned but he left me out again without any explanation.”
She explained with a shrug and a dab of her hanky to her eyes. “Oh! This would
have been how Roshan’s girlfriend would have looked had he dined with me.
Thanks to me she escaped it”, I mused.
The goddess
saw that I was just chewing while staring at her without reacting. So she
returned her gaze back to the window. “So this is not the first time is it?” I
know I startled her with that question but I decided to play this game in a
monotonous tone and style. For I really wanted to help her out and I knew that
if I get all caring and consoling in her emotional state she wouldn’t be
encouraged to speak up.
She looked
at me for a some seconds and shook her head with an “Eleventh.” “Are you
kidding me lady?” was what I wanted to ask but I did not blurt it out, instead
just shook my head understandingly. “I know I look crazy but I really love him
that I can’t accept the fact that he’s not interested in me anymore though I
comprehend it.” That bloody idiot is going to cry for rest of his life having
lost a girl who really cares for him. “Did you speak about this to him?” She
shook her head and answered her no. This brain of yours needs some shaking lady!
“Okay ,
don’t mind me but can I tell you something?” I asked her. Like she understood
what came next she was about to rise up but I stopped her with a signal.
“Listen, being a guy I understand the mentality of guys better than girls. So
just listen in patience and then you can do what you want I won’t stop you. If
this guy had walked out on you more than five times without giving you any
solid reason it’s high time you understand that you can’t make it work single
handedly” She froze in her place so I continued ,“Furthermore I think that
moving on in life would take you to the right person who would cherish you for
what you are. Also understand that if you underestimate your value and wanna
anchor your whole life in a place where it’s not recognized you’re gonna make
your life a living hell.” With that I stopped and looked at her to see her
reaction.
She smiled
at me and I also noticed a clearness in her face. She ate the cold soup in a
hurry after asking the waiter to bring her bill all the while I was staring at
her shocked. For she looked like the goddess of gloom some minutes ago and now
in a spur of moments she’s back with the vigour of the goddess of spring. This
lady really is a Sudoku. Her bill came, she paid with a generous tip for the
waiter who had not been of much use and left the table. That attitude again!
Not a thank you, no good bye and no not even a simple smile of courtesy.
A sudden “My
name is Akshara. Thank you and you startle a lot!” did startle me. She left the
restaurant with that and that was when my tortoise brain fired up. “You startle
a lot?” So she did remember me as the guy out from the asylum? Oh, why cupid?
Why me? With that I rushed out of the restaurant and searched for my goddess
but unlike the movies in reality love at fourth sight never works out easily
and she wasn’t there. “Aksh-ara”, I tasted her name and smiled with the feeling
that “Goddess” suited her best. For as much as she looked like one she had the
attitude of one too. I went back into the restaurant smiling like an idiot. For
I was sure that cupid would not leave his work unfinished and most of all I had
complete trust in my hacking talents. “I’m a network engineer baby. I’m sure
I’ll find you”, I confessed to the air she breathed and opened the door of my
car to go home to start on my current most mysterious and interesting project I
had ever done in my life.
Author:-
Badurdeen Fathima Ayesha